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Weekly recovery posts from the 2026 relaunch. Start with whatever title meets you today.

  • The Difference Between Numb and Calm

    Photo: eberhard grossgasteiger / Pexels — Free to use For years, acting out was how I got through things I didn’t want to deal with. If there was a project at work I was dreading, or a conversation I didn’t want to have, acting out is what let me finally sit down and do it.…

  • Do You Know What You’re Feeling Right Now?

    Someone asked me once, in an early recovery group, “what are you feeling right now,” and I genuinely did not know how to answer. Not because I was hiding it, but because I actually could not locate the feeling. I could tell you what had happened that day. I could tell you what I was…

  • Why Addiction Steals Your Joy Too

    For a long time I thought I was chasing a high. Looking back, I wasn’t chasing anything, I was running from something. Underneath every binge there was some kind of pain I didn’t want to sit with: things not going the way I wanted, uncertainty about where my life was headed, boredom I didn’t know…

  • The Real Reason We Relapse

    I used to think my relapses came out of nowhere. One minute I was fine, doing the work, feeling solid, and the next minute I was right back in it, wondering how I’d gotten there so fast. It took me a long time to notice the pattern underneath the pattern. It was never really about…

  • Your Brain Is Not Broken

    For a long time I believed something was permanently wrong with me. Not wrong in the “I made bad choices” sense, wrong in the “I am built differently than people who can just walk away from this” sense. I’d hear stories about people who quit cold turkey and never looked back, and I’d think, that’s…

  • The Story We Tell Ourselves

    I got really good at lying to myself. Not the obvious kind of lying. I wasn’t sitting there consciously making things up. It was subtler than that. My brain had developed this whole internal script, a set of stories that ran automatically whenever I was about to act out or when someone (or something) pressed…

  • Why You Can’t Just Stop

    I remember the moment I decided, really decided, that I was done. I meant it. I felt the weight of it, the resolve. I told myself this was the last time, that tomorrow would be different, that I had enough self-control to just… stop. And then a few days later I was right back where…

  • Finding My Way Back

    There is something humbling about returning to a place you left. I started this site with a clear purpose — to be a resource for those fighting their way out of sexual addiction. Then life moved fast, and the posts stopped. Five years passed. The site sat quiet while the world kept spinning and people…

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